Sitting at the bar stool, drinking my hot chocolate, with no desire to finish the brown liquid in my cup, but not wanting to waste hard earned dollars either, I sat and I thought. My thoughts and questions spun around in my mind, almost as if each thought was a child, dancing to the melody of my heart. Each beat caused my children to swirl and to spin, jumping onto center stage and leaving as quickly as it came. I sat and watched with awe as each child performed, some taking longer than others. As each walked off the stage, they left a trail of emotion that hung in the air momentarily before chasing after their creator.
Most thoughts made me feel warm inside or would have me laughing as they danced around in the solitary theater that was inside my head. As I sat at the bar, I didn’t have those feelings that I loved so much. Instead, as each child danced and performed, they left me feeling cold, saddened, and pitiful, feelings I did not want to experience today.
From the audience, I yelled at the stage, questioning why the performances of today were so solemn. Almost instinctive, a child ran across the stage, carrying a banner of her. Her short, dark hair that rolled down like a beautiful waterfall across her shoulders. Inevitably getting lost in her deep brown eyes, but never wanting to break away from. Her bright, beautiful smile, a contagious disease that there was no cure for. Her magnificent voice, a drug that left you craving for more.
As she danced off the stage, the emotion she left was at first warm, pleasant, and peaceful, but quickly became sad, painful, and lonely. Oh how I missed her, each day more and more painful away from her, the one that surely, I could never replace. I felt the pain slowly leave my thoughts, and roll down my face, staining warm images that I once felt.
The words of confidence and hope that I whispered to myself brought little change to the pain I was feeling. Fearing the worst, I walked down the frozen sidewalk to a place where I may be able to forget about my sorrows for a while.
As I entered the building, I witnessed a wave, moving and coursing throughout the room with an astonishing amount of power pulsing with energy, almost as if beckoning for me to join. Descending down the hollow steps, allowing myself to be swallowed up in the current, I feel alive again. Standing alone in the sea of people, mindlessly floating amongst the darkened faces, seeing in their eyes their same desire that I so desperately want for myself.
I close my eyes and allow myself to feel the pulse of the rhythm flow through my veins, losing myself in the feelings of peace and temporary happiness that wrap around my soul. The moment doesn’t last long, as the wave becomes increasingly violent and it takes all my power to ensure that I don’t drown in the strength of the wave of souls around me.
As I struggled for my place among the current, a glimmer caught my eye. The dark brown hair that shimmered in the light, her piercing brown eyes, seemingly calling to me, like a lighthouse calls towards a sinking ship. The bright white smile that shot right through me in a beam of joy and warmth. Walking towards her, I felt a light inside of me flicker, and begin to burn inside of me, as I felt a glimmer of hope inside my life once more. Taking her into my arms, time stood still, just me and her, emitting off an indescribable power that even the current of people couldn’t overcome as wave flowed around us.
Taking her arm into mine, as I walked her down to her apartment, I became breathless and my head was spinning. Nothing mattered to me anymore as I wished her goodnight, and stared into her eyes once more before turning away from my guardian angel, to face the storms of loneliness and disappointment once more. This time however, I had the courage and the hand of my guardian angel, guiding me towards my success.
Most thoughts made me feel warm inside or would have me laughing as they danced around in the solitary theater that was inside my head. As I sat at the bar, I didn’t have those feelings that I loved so much. Instead, as each child danced and performed, they left me feeling cold, saddened, and pitiful, feelings I did not want to experience today.
From the audience, I yelled at the stage, questioning why the performances of today were so solemn. Almost instinctive, a child ran across the stage, carrying a banner of her. Her short, dark hair that rolled down like a beautiful waterfall across her shoulders. Inevitably getting lost in her deep brown eyes, but never wanting to break away from. Her bright, beautiful smile, a contagious disease that there was no cure for. Her magnificent voice, a drug that left you craving for more.
As she danced off the stage, the emotion she left was at first warm, pleasant, and peaceful, but quickly became sad, painful, and lonely. Oh how I missed her, each day more and more painful away from her, the one that surely, I could never replace. I felt the pain slowly leave my thoughts, and roll down my face, staining warm images that I once felt.
The words of confidence and hope that I whispered to myself brought little change to the pain I was feeling. Fearing the worst, I walked down the frozen sidewalk to a place where I may be able to forget about my sorrows for a while.
As I entered the building, I witnessed a wave, moving and coursing throughout the room with an astonishing amount of power pulsing with energy, almost as if beckoning for me to join. Descending down the hollow steps, allowing myself to be swallowed up in the current, I feel alive again. Standing alone in the sea of people, mindlessly floating amongst the darkened faces, seeing in their eyes their same desire that I so desperately want for myself.
I close my eyes and allow myself to feel the pulse of the rhythm flow through my veins, losing myself in the feelings of peace and temporary happiness that wrap around my soul. The moment doesn’t last long, as the wave becomes increasingly violent and it takes all my power to ensure that I don’t drown in the strength of the wave of souls around me.
As I struggled for my place among the current, a glimmer caught my eye. The dark brown hair that shimmered in the light, her piercing brown eyes, seemingly calling to me, like a lighthouse calls towards a sinking ship. The bright white smile that shot right through me in a beam of joy and warmth. Walking towards her, I felt a light inside of me flicker, and begin to burn inside of me, as I felt a glimmer of hope inside my life once more. Taking her into my arms, time stood still, just me and her, emitting off an indescribable power that even the current of people couldn’t overcome as wave flowed around us.
Taking her arm into mine, as I walked her down to her apartment, I became breathless and my head was spinning. Nothing mattered to me anymore as I wished her goodnight, and stared into her eyes once more before turning away from my guardian angel, to face the storms of loneliness and disappointment once more. This time however, I had the courage and the hand of my guardian angel, guiding me towards my success.
